Walking the Red Road alone requires trust

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Tansi, ahnee and hello.

Changes.

Outside my window this morning there is bright sun in the sky. The sky that holds it is a hard blue. The air is clean, crisp and rich with the sounds of birds.

A new season.

At first glance it would almost seem like another lazy summer morning not unlike the ninety or so summer mornings which have just passed.

Mornings all have that quality, I suppose. Minus the presence of snow they are all, at first glance, as fresh and full of promise as any other.

The edges.

That first glance out my window only shoed me the edges. Standing at the doorway with my coffee cup steaming in my hand, there is a separateness to this particular morning that sets it apart

entirely from every other day.

Time.

It takes a bit of time to see it.

Somehow the world has changed.

I write this column Monday mornings. As I drifted through this past weekend the world drifted through some changes of its own. Funny how easy it is sometimes to get so caught up in your own

affairs that something as spectacular as a change of season can go unnoticed. I missed it until now.

A change of season.

I find myself a single man again this morning. This last while I was in the company of a beautiful, creative and loving woman. I was in a home where dreams and reality were equally and with

respect. I was part of a union.

Our people have always believed in the natural laws. When the Creator breathed life and motion into the universe, he did so with one breath.

With this one breath all things became related. When things are connected in this way, there is harmony and there is balance. There is room for all things to grow.

But the Creator in his wisdom also breathed motion into the universe. With this breath of motion was created one of the strongest of the natural laws.

The law of change.

When living things have room to grow they will. When living things grow they change.

The old one once told me that even wind on stone acts invisibly to alter or change the face of the stone. Because of the inter-relatedness of all things, the wholeness of the universe, change is

everywhere.

This morning I face change.

I've come a long way in this. It wasn't all that many years ago when changes were the most feared thing in my world. Because change meant growth and I was very afraid to grow.

I was afraid that if things changed I might have to wake up to find myself alone. Back then I couldn't be alone because I really didn't like the me I was back then.

You see, I'd never taken the time to look around my world. I'd never taken the time to watch seasons change. Never taken the time to watch my family grow and change. Never taken the time to

seek the wisdom of the elders or to find that place inside myself where there was no fear. The place that allows change in my life.

So many of us fight it and we suffer. What it comes down to is this. If we are truly trying to live our lives as close to the traditional way of our people as possible, if we are trying to live our lives

according to the laws and will of our Creator, then we have to stop fighting change in our lives.

Walking the Red Road is very much a trusting thing.

Trust. I do not know this morning why it is necessary for me to leave a home and a relationship with someone who cared so much for me. I do not know why I have to examine the feeling I have

churning around inside me these days. I do not know why I have to be alone.

What I do know is that there is a reason. When I will discover that reason is up to my Creator. All I need to do for now is to take care of myself and to keep looking for answers. Answers to

myself. Answers o the way that I want to deal with the world. Answers to changes.

Because another of the natural laws is that here are two ways to deal with the changes. There is the way that brings things together and there is the way that tears this apart. The healing way or the

disappearing way. I seek healing.

So I am single again. There is pain in this but here is also something the Old One told me concerning this.

He told me when the Creator breathed life and motion into the universe all things became related. Therefore all things are in relationship. Relationships then are like everything else in the

universe. They never die, just change.

Until next week, Meegwetch.